taking a break from LSLMA

LSLMA

Dear poor lil friends,

School hasnt been a breeze so far and i'm still struggling to get the hang of things over here. Things that i did this week (the ones that made me happy and high are in bold:D)

I did
-not go for freshman bash. sold my ticket(i heard the music was bad but club music is always bad to me. someone please go Bellini with me :D)
-meet up with L&L people instead! had beer (and ikan bilis [!!??] ) at the lousy SMU Ice Cold B and then more of those intoxicating drinks (and chicken wings, fries, mini burgers) at the real Ice Cold Beer :P
-not complete my readings
-not attend the muay thai trial run
-scour for a good buy. nice fila sneakers at half price! what a steal :)
-not manage to go back to vj today cos my driving lesson ended late (tday celebs :( :( :( )
-go back to rgs and visited the teachers on Monday with jun li.
-we saw Ms pang, julie koh, Chang, mrs Deb Tan...laoshi ;P


AND IM SO GLAD THE WEEKEND IS HERE.
dont worry. i will stay +++ve. i know i will :)

DECISION ANXIETY

i've not updated for an awfully long time. apologies to those who still check this blog now and again.
school in SMU has started. it hasn't been a pleasant experience for now. personally, the seminar style teaching is putting me off because i feel that in just this first week of school, i have witnessed for myself what they mean (though im not sure if this is what they want) by Class participation. people give me the impression that they are forcing anything and everything they can think of out of their mouths. just to be heard (by prof?).

not much of it is constructive tho'. and since we're in the first week of school, how much would we know about the topic to be able to offer great nuggets of insight? all comments thrown out during class seem mostly to be parroting each other, or they are rhetorical questions, or some smart aleck comment which is not related to the topic of discussion.

i hope things get better for myself and the rest of my classmates.
CCA day today. im performing with Voix and well, im also thinking of joining a non competitive sport. haha.


Decision Anxiety: Why Decision-Making is Harder for Some and How They Can Make It Easier (Part 1)
this is by EUGENE LOH. Enjoy.

For some of us, decision-making can be a nightmare - "What should I wear today?", "What should I drink?", "What stocks should I buy?", "What colour should I paint my room?", "Should I go out tonight?", "Should I marry her?", "Should I get a divorce?".
From the simplest and most mundane to the potentially life-changing, decision-making is a task we face daily, and if not handled well, can bring us a lot of stress and anxiety.
People who find it difficult to make decisions typically over-analyse the situation - they think of all the possible reasons why they should or should not do something, and then get caught when there seems to be as many logical reasons for both. They need to be absolutely sure they make the "right" decision, and this obsession is what's sending them round in circles. Now, in most cases, it's impossible to make a judgement on what's right. So much of life is ambiguous and to desire to always make a "right" decision is to condemn oneself to much stressful wavering, doubt and regret.
Certainly there are decisions in life that require proper consideration but we should not fret so much about them that they paralyse us or bog us down with guilt long after the fact. We must accept that every decision is good and bad to a certain extent and that how good and bad it is really depends on whose eyes we're looking out from. It's also true that with many of the decisions we make, we never know if they were the right ones, but that shouldn't prevent us from being happy with them.
If we keep waiting around for a sign, or to be absolutely sure before acting, then we will never act. In fact, so many of us, in our fear of making the wrong decisions, simply fail to decide, not realizing of course, that by not acting, we have already made a decision. That's why some of us keep making the same mistakes, keep doing what doesn't work, or remain in a job or with someone who doesn't fulfill us.
Decision anxiety, even if it doesn't prevent us from making decisions, can cause us to base our decisions on emotional whims or the approval of others - for e.g. "I smoke because my job is stressful", "I need a dog because I'm lonely", "I'm with him because of financial security", "this is the only way others will accept me", or "nobody will like the real me". These ways of making a decision are not the result of logical thought. They are just crutches we fall on because we don't want to take responsibility for our decisions.
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200 things I've done (in bold) at least once the past 19 years:
200 things i wish i could do (in italics) at least once in my life:

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the great pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the northern lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of leaning tower of pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment. AND THAT WAS IN COURT.
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar 4
0. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a cheque
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ... and gotten 86’ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

心如刀割

我的天是灰色
我的心是蓝色
触摸着你的心
竟是透明的

你的悠然自得
我却束手无策
我的心痛竟是你的快乐

其实我不想对你恋恋不舍
但什么让我辗转反侧
不觉我说着说着天就亮了
我的唇角尝到一种苦涩

我是真的为你哭了
你是真的随他走了
就在这一刻
全世界伤心角色又多了我一个
我是真的为你爱了
你是真的跟他走了
能给的我全都给了我都舍得
除了让你知道我心如刀割

dear poor little friends, this is a really touching song! zhang xue you rocks :)

FTT

hello dear poor little friends,
i passed my FTT! :)

going to meet the instructor and probably decide on when to start having lessons....
given tht if i have to fund myself thru this whole learning thing, how much do i need to set aside for the lessons? my instructor charges about 30 every 90minutes. hmmm. :\
still havent taken a passport photo for my passport...i'll cease to be a singapore citizen in a few months... YAY haha.......zzz.

was reading the objections filed by the minority owners of this mega huge en bloc estate yesterday, and they are really valid reasons. its amazing how a few of these owners (not represented by the bulk's lawyer) can come up with essays of substance exceeding that provided by the "bulk's lawyer". the essays followed PEE format; the evidence was so well presented that i was actually convinced, that the process of en bloc is really really unfair to the minority. especialyl when you buy the property to RESIDE in, and not for investment purposes.

its a friday tomorrow:)

party world

dear poor little friends, there are two party worlds at Tanjong pagar! one's larger and just opposite the MRt station,the other looks quite sleazy and according to Benj, "looks like Geylang". went to sing karaoke with my DHL colleagues last last night...it was great fun! anyway when we stepped into the place benj remarked again! "smells like Geylang!". haixia and i were flabbergasted. :P :P :P. so it was a good gathering; met xen, glady(s),haixia ben and kevin. :):):). hahaa... was totally entertained by haixia the entire night!!

i miss all of them badlyyyyy..... :( :( :( :( :(

am i still me?

hello my poor little friends who still visit this blog. eternally grateful that you guys still check for my rare updates. thank u.

1- ive changed job..no longer with DESC finance but am doing some Real estate work at Lee&lee and i totally detest office wear. i miss dressing casually for work at DESC..no other office workplace will i get that kind of slack lor... everyday is dress-down-friday there. haiz...
theres alot of reluctance on my part to buy officewear since i wont be wearing them after this few months. so im surviving on my miserable pieces of office wear... :( ps i hate shopping.
plus my short working stint at lee&lee has made me realise that i really wont enjoy practising law. corporate im not interested; liti is just....not for me. twisting things in your favour even when u know the client doesnt have the right to have custody to the child; that the child will suffer under your client. thinking why i did not apply for the MOE teaching scholarships or any teaching awards etc if i was really keen on teaching. in all my decisions in what uni course to do i always consider if i will be able to go back to teaching one day. i was dissuaded by my parents from teaching and perhaps that just shows that im either easily swayed or im just not passionate enough. im also confused if im really interested in TEACHING, yada yada and get geked by the students but still achieve that satisfaction; or am i just interested in going back to a "school" sort of environment. haiz. i need to analyse things properly...
2- i bought a nice big handbag today. my indecisiveness was shown again as i hovered around the two bags that i was choosing between, for about. 45 minutes. BLEH. the saleswoman left me alone to make my decision after a while. and so what did i do? i retardedly emptied the contents of my cheap 22$ (ha! but its still good enough for me ok) canvas bag. both bags passed the first test of being able to store my Nalgene bottle without looking overstuffed, but when i tried to put in my answer scripts the smaller bag failed.... so.. sigh. :( should i go back to get the smaller one? its a sling cum tote bag, good size, nice brown with a steel buckle and its just 49! its beautiful. and its down from 99. yea :(
sigh...
3- am still waiting for NUS to reply me. so far, ive been offered
NTU accountancy. versus SMU accountancy + business double degree.
and if i do get sent to bioengine/ science fac, should i really go into it because i want to use the degree to teach in the end? its alot harder for a BAcc / BBM graduate to teach unless u study more to the standard of teaching Accountancy... though no doubt the accountancy deg has more market value than bioengine, or science.
4- im very confused. am i sacrificing too much ? will everything be worth it in the end? why should i put myself through all this crap? am i being SENSIBLE ? im sure my parents have their reasons for thinking the way they are thinking.........am i just too naive and trusting?
maybe its just not time yet........
sigh....

Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

EEE

Hello. been more sleep deprived than normal these few days because of uni applications. Think i may be leaving my current job soon-for greener pastures hopefully. to think of it, now is the only few months i can try out new jobs and gain exposure to as many vocatiosn as possible! so why am i feeling the inertia. work has become repetitive and boring, and my only reason for staying is cos' of the great colleagues i have and also the location of my workplace. its time to move on...
but seriously, im keen on trying out jobs like Barista. Camp Instructor. Drama teacher but for that u need a drama dip. at least =(

Am quite shocked at how much destruction one person caused. the massacre at Virginia tech didnt seem so freaky at first-until i read about the incident and the process of it. how much planning went into the thing!! anyway the number 32 just didnt impact me much at the beginning. guess this is what Young likes to say about us being numbed and only figures like, a million, or a couple of thousand deaths could shock us. but imagining the scene of pandemonium and horrified students....the wild shooting.. 32, or even one life... sigh. haiz. life is so unpredictable. Anyway guess the guy majored English because he probably wanted to use it as a means of communication since he was so non communicative.non verbal i mean. or perhaps just the mindset that with English he could attain greater standards etc sincee hes in USA.
Can't imagine what consequences there will be if something like this happens in Singapore. like berserk student brings in homemade bomb and sets it off during class...

im into this Sunyanzi song at the moment, its called Kai Shi Dong Le.quite an old song, caught it on 958 while in the car that day.

FUN DAY

it was sports day and unfortunately i didnt manage to get back on time. office was slack today.ok not really but, i just reconfirmed the fact tat i like doing miscellaneous things. like giving out food (peanut pancakes courtesy of raymond ), escorting xen to the bank (actually i wasnt really needed haha but it was fun to get a breather)...etc. today i saw the most cartoonish design for the workstation name display. it was big and yellow and your name would be emblazoned in like, blue. in an ugly font. so it looked like lego.

sorry this is so VT disorganised. so, to the bank was always fun. catching up with xen (i miss sitting next to her though she can be so VT noisy), buying food for the rest in the office(another misc job), sneaking into HR's meeting room to have lunch since our pathetic pantry doesnt have a table... i regret buying the fish and chips frm newyorkpizza because
1-service was poor;
2-they took so very the long to prepare the food;
3-the fries had turned soggy when i got back to office;
4-the design of the box (its a large triangle like a pizza) is just so impractical and bulky. i couldnt even fit the box into the dustbin when i was throwing it away.

i spent the afternoon calling up our suppliers to get their email addresses. thats about it. left office and caught a lift from haixia's sister,who drpped me off near vj. bought dinner for my drama jnrs,took a bus back and had fun back in the lang lab! so i bought meals for people twice in a day! i should be in the service sector :O am also so glad to see my capt and vcapt (cheryl and denise respectively) again! all the quirky antics of theirs and my noms...i had the whole bunch do this japanese bow to me infront of the canteen and they chanted like, "GOOD EVENING GRAND SENIOR" and "GOODBYE GGRAND SENIOR". hmm. i am their grand senior. doesnt that just sound bloody old? and it was fun just watching the rehearsals and mryoung going silly over his hiphop thing. haiz. the best part was the brutal scenes today...all these stage things i wished everyone would have mastered by now. how to fake a slap, a fall, a punch and a blow in the stomach...its important. oh well. and i shouldnt have missed sports day.

its past 2am. time to sleep and nurse my sickness... my throat feels like its burning. perhaps i shouldnt have given in to my temptations during lunch. now my throat's worse than before... :(
and i hve submitted my uni applications. after clicking the dropdown button and switching my options around and up and down...im going to leave it for good and hope for the best.

everything will be alright.
things will work out.
im hopeful.

titoudao

hello. went to watch ti tou dao (pronounced as Tee tao doh..) with jiajia young n mrteo. it was quite good. didnt really understand in the beginning and it was a while after the show started that things started piecing up... and then i went OHhh.. mostly in dialect, its about an opera singer's life from the 1960s...all the way till now. how they spoke of chinese opera as a dying trade...etc. the actors were really professional and the voice quality was superb!!
anyway am down with throat inflammation again... :( is it stress?
i dont understand why im procrastinating my application to uni... havent actually gone into the portal as yet. each time i go to the NUS website i'll just leave it idle and go to some other webbie... sigh. the thing in the newspapers today, how people just strive to get their 4As first and then decide later about what they want to / can study, its so true... though sometimes its necessary to have the goal in mind. think it could have served as a big motivation, to have a career in mind and to work towards having the basic results to enter that faculty.

i like this song-

not sure if u guys will be able to see this.
ANYONE WITH THE GUITAR CHORDS (or if u manage to find out the chords) pleaseE TELL ME. THANK U:D:D:D

失去才会懂得珍惜
但我珍惜你
伤越痛就是爱越深
我不相信
你和我同时停止呼吸
每一次我们靠近
你让我忘了困惑
忘了所有烦心
我把你紧紧拥入怀里
捧你在我手心
谁叫我真的爱的就是你
在爱的纯净世界
你就是我唯一
永远永远不要怀疑
我把你当作我的空气
如此形影不离
我大声说我爱的就是你
在爱的幸福国度
你就是我唯一
我唯一爱的就是你
我真的爱的就是你
就是你唯一爱的就是你
爱的就是你

the self centred post

Hi. Meet me!

ive been an enfp since i started taking this test seriously (and honestly) in sec 3.

Profile by Sandra Krebs Hirsch and Jean Kummerow

ENFPs are initiators of change who are keenly perceptive of possibilities, and who energize and stimulate through their contagious enthusiasm. They prefer the start-up phase of a project or relationship, and are tireless in the pursuit of new-found interests. ENFPs are able to anticipate the needs of others and to offer them needed help and appreciation. They bring zest, joy, liveliness, and fun to all aspects of their lives. They are at their best in situations that are fluid and changing, and that allow them to express their creativity and use their charisma.

Living
ENFP children are 'into everything.' Their natural curiosity results in children for whom questions were invented. They often spend long periods of time devising new and original --- but not necessarily practical --- languages, plays, and scenarios. Many ENFPs enjoy drawing, writing, playacting, and dreaming. They are often chosen as leaders because of their persuasive enthusiasm and their energy for new and different ways of developing things.
ENFP teenagers are agreeable, sociable, outgoing people who like to imagine themselves in the future. They spend many hours wondering and discussing with friends whom they will marry, where they will live, what their children will be like, and what work they will do. They leave no option or possibility unexplored and find it difficult to see themselves in any single job or career.
Because they see endless possibilities, to select one possibility appears to the ENFP to be too narrow a focus. They hate to be boxed into a career for life and therefore hesitate and resist making decisions. It is unwise for ENFPs to settle down too early, and they make the soundest choices when they delay career and marriage decisions until their middle to late twenties. Often when a decision is made, ENFPs will still leave a number of options open or change their minds as they encounter new information.
Even in their everyday activities, ENFPs often search for the new and the novel. If there is a logical route to work and ENFP has been driving that way continually, he or she will likely tire of it and look for other routes.
ENFPs are more likely than other types to change from one career to another, demonstrating their versatility in doing so. It is not uncommon to hear stories of ENFPs who have established themselves in a career and who, when faced with the daily routine of maintaining it, leave it to start another.
Adult ENFPs maintain characteristics that might be considered youthful, such as enthusiasm, curiosity, and a zestful outlook on life. As a result, people often enjoy being with them. Many times they are young-in-spirit as they age, perhaps because of their temperament.
ENFPs look forward to retirement as a time that can bring freedom from the restrictions of the work world and ample opportunity to pursue their varied interests. However, if ENFPs become disabled or experience a lack of resources, such as money, they may become despondent because this restricts their ability to quest after new experiences.

Learning
ENFPs often learn best through a variety of means, such as observing, reading, and listening to and interacting with others. They enjoy the search for new ideas and possibilities, and will put in the time necessary to master subjects they find interesting. One strength is their enthusiasm for the process of discovery. They enjoy survey courses, comparative studies, and disciplines in which there is much to research and explore. They do not like classes that are too structured, that consist only of lectures, and that allow no room for their imagination. They may get caught up in the learning process and consequently need strict deadlines to bring a project to completion.
ENFPs prefer a learning environment in which the teacher takes personal interest in them, in which there is an opportunity to talk about ideas with their peers, and in which there is a chance to ask questions and develop new ideas.
A motto that might describe the ENFP as a learner is "There's always another way or another answer."

still reading?

Working
ENFPs often follow a nonlinear career track and nontraditional routes to obtaining knowledge, qualifications, and skills. When they are committed to what they do, they are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the entire world about it. For an ENFP, work must be fun and must contribute to something larger than merely collecting a paycheck.
The preferred work setting for ENFPs contains imaginative people focused on human possibilities. ENFPs want a work environment that is both physically and mentally colorful. They prefer a participative and collegial atmosphere in which employees are included in the decision making. ENFPs are less productive where there is disharmony because they pay more attention to the relationships between people at work than they do to the tasks. Their ideal job would offer variety, novelty, challenge, and freedom from tight supervision; it would be idea oriented and imaginative, and would have lively, energetic people enjoying themselves and their tasks.
Most ENFPs will say they are organized, but others might not see them that way. Their desire to be open to the moment tends to outweigh their need to be organized. Usually ENFP work space is arranged haphazardly, with work materials and personal momentos scattered about. In terms of the management of time, ENFPs find it particularly difficult to estimate accurately how long an activity will take. Because people's needs are more important than schedules, ENFPs are often late and characteristically full of apologies for their tardiness.
ENFPs prefer occupations that reflect their ideals and that promote harmonious relationships with others. They tend to be attracted to occupations with a service orientation. ENFPs usually find a place in their work life for creativity. They particularly enjoy people-oriented work in which they are able to combine things in new and different ways to benefit humanity. Flexibility and autonomy are important to ENFPs, who may bolt from organizations in which this is not attainable.
Common occupations picked by ENFPs include artist, clergy, consultant, counselor, entertainer, journalist, public relations worker, social scientist, social worker, teacher, and other occupations that allow ENFPs to use their creativity and insight.

Leading
ENFPs are energetic and enthusiastic leaders who are likely to take charge when a new endeavor needs a visionary spokesperson. ENFPs are values-oriented people who become champions of causes and services relating to human needs and dreams. Their leadership style is one of soliciting and recognizing others' contributions and of evaluating the personal needs of their followers. ENFPs are often charismatic leaders who are able to help people see the possibilities beyond themselves and their current realities. They function as catalysts.

Leisure
ENFPs often have a difficult time separating their work from their leisure. Because they like to have fun while they work and usually arrange their work lives to meet this need, the boundaries between their work and their leisure may not be as clear as they might be for some other types.
Because of their continual search for new things to experience, it is rare for ENFPs to become heavily involved in a single activity; their appetite for involvement is too great. Generally, ENFPs are on the lookout for new things and may come across what is "trendy" before others. They tend to participate early on in those new activities.
ENFPs like travel and reading because these activities open experiences of other times and places. Their reading often brings quiet and reflection time, as well as new material for their dreams. Their travels afford them opportunities to experience different people and cultures.
Some ENFPs may invite others to join them at plays, films, or in classes. Some enjoy physical activities in which they are able to challenge themselves, release their energy, and maintain their physical fitness.

Loving
For ENFPs, loving is an almost constant state. They are generally involved or in love with someone or something new. ENFPs may have originated the quotation "All the world loves a lover." When falling in love, they explore all the new possibilities in the relationship, and the new person is studied in every way. The ENFP tends to idealize his or her current relationship and will often say that their current one is "the best ever."
It might be argued that each type, when first in love, resembles a garden-variety ENFP, because ENFPs normally behave like people in love. Some of the cultural cliches about falling in love - such as "Falling in love with love," "Head over heels in love," "Love is blind," "All the world loves a lover," and "Throw caution to the wind" - seem to apply to the ENFP. This same boundless affection can be showered upon friends, co-workers, and others. People often feel unconditionally loved by ENFPs, but over time many of these relationships dissipate, as in "When I'm not near the ones I love, I love the ones I'm near."
ENFPs are delightful, enthusiastic partners who are young in spirit; there is rarely a dull moment with them. They readily note their partner's best aspects. They may overlook obvious details and facts about their partners that might cause other types to be more cautious. As relationships progress, ENFPs romanticise their partners and make strong efforts to rationalize any discrepancy between the reality and their "ideal."
When they are in love, they may either overcommit and ignore any unpleasant yet true facts; or they may undercommit, believing that there may be a better love "just around the corner." Therefore, ENFPs may be seen as fickle in their relationships as they search for the "right one."
When and if the flaws in the relationship become too obvious to ENFPs, they may admit defeat, feeling great pain because they have put so much energy into perfecting a particular relationship. When ENFPs are scorned, they overgeneralize about their partners' worst faults. Because ENFPs thrive on new possibilities, when they fall out of love, they rebound quickly.

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For ENFPs nothing occurs which does not have some significance, and they have an uncanny sense of the motivations of others. This gives them a talent for seeing life as an exciting drama, pregnant with possibilities for both good and evil. This type is found in only about 5 percent of the general population, but they have great influence because of their extraordinary impact on others. ENFPs strive toward the authentic, even when acting spontaneously, and this is usually communicated nonverbally to others, who find this characteristic attractive. ENFPs, however, find their own efforts of authenticity and spontaneity always lacking, and tend to heap coals of fire on themselves, always berating themselves for being so conscious of self.
ENFPs consider intense emotional experiences vital; when they have these, however, they are made uneasy by a sense of being there but with a part of themselves split off. They strive for congruency, but always see themselves in some danger of losing touch with their real feelings, which ENFPs possess in a wide range and variety.
ENFPs exercise a continuous scanning of the external environment, and nothing out of the ordinary is likely to escape their attention. They are keen and penetrating observers and are capable of intense concentration on another individual while aware of what is going on about them. Their attention is never passive or casual, never wandering, but always directed. At times, ENFPs find themselves interpreting events in terms of another's "hidden motive," giving special meaning to words or actions. This interpretation tends to be negative and, more often than not, inaccurately negative. In the process, an ENFP may find that he or she has introduced an unnecessary, toxic element into the relationship. While ENFPs are brilliantly perceptive, they can make serious mistakes in judgment, which works to their discomfort. These mistakes derive from their tendency to focus on data which confirm their own biases. They may be absolutely correct in their perceptions but wrong in their conclusions.
Because they tend to be hypersensitive and hyper-alert, they may suffer from muscle tension. They live in readiness for emergencies; because they have this facility, they assume this is true for others. They can become bored rather quickly with both situations and people, and resist repeating experiences. They enjoy the process of creating something-an idea or a project-but are not as interested in the follow-through. They are typically enthusiastic, and this is contagious. People get caught up and entranced by an ENFP. Yet this type is marked with a fierce independence, repudiating any kind of subordination, either in themselves or in others in relation to them. They do tend to attribute more power to authority figures than is there and give over to these figures an ability to "see through" them-which also is not apt to be there. While ENFPs resist the notion of others becoming dependent or having power over them, their charisma draws followers who wish to be shown the way. ENFPs constantly find themselves surrounded by others who look toward the ENFP for wisdom, inspiration, courage, leadership, and so on-an expectancy which, at times, weighs rather heavily on an ENFP.
ENFPs are characteristically optimistic and are surprised when people or events do not turn out as anticipated. Often their confidence in the innate goodness of fate and human nature is a self-fulling prophecy.

Career
ENFPs have a remarkable latitude in career choices and succeed in many fields. As workers, they are warmly enthusiastic, high-spirited, ingenious, imaginative, and can do almost anything that interests them. They can solve most problems, particularly those dealing with people. They are charming and at ease with colleagues; others enjoy their presence. ENFPs are outstanding in getting people together, and are good at initiating meetings and conferences, although not as talented at providing for the operational details of these events. They enjoy inventing new ways of doing things, and their projects tend to become a cause, quickly becoming personalized. They are imaginative themselves, but can have difficulty picking up on ideas and projects initiated by others. They must make these ideas and projects their own if ENFPs are to lend their energy and interest. Once people or projects become routine, ENFPs are likely to lose interest; what might be is always more fascinating than what is. ENFPs make extensive use of their intuitive powers. They usually have a wide range of personal and telephone contacts, expending energy in maintaining both career and personal relationships.
ENFPs make excellent salespeople, advertising people, politicians, screen or play writers, and in general are attracted to the interpretative arts, particularly character acting. People to people work is essential for ENFPs, who need the feedback of interaction with others. ENFPs may find it difficult to work within the constraints of an institution, especially in following rules, regulations, and standard operating procedures. More frequently, institutional procedures and policies are targets to be challenged and bent by the will of an ENFP. Colleagues and superiors sometimes find themselves in the position of having to accommodate and salvage. At times, ENFPs demonstrate impatience with others; they may get into difficulty in an organization by siding with its detractors, who find in an ENFP a sympathetic ear and a natural rescuer. In occupational choice, ENFPs quickly become restless if the choice involves painstaking detail and follow-through over a period of time. Variety in day-to-day operations and interactions best suits the talents of ENFPs, who need quite a bit of latitude in which to exercise their adaptive ingenuity.

Home
As mates, ENFPs tend to be charming, gentle, sympathetic, and nonconformist. They are not likely to be interested in the less-inspired routines of daily maintenance and ever will be seeking new outlets for their inspirations. As parents, ENFPs are devoted although somewhat unpredictable in handling their children, shifting from a role of friend-in-need-rescuer to stern authority figure. They may not always be willing to enforce their impulsive pronouncements, but leave it to their mates to follow through. A mate of an ENFP can expect charming surprises: extravagant generosity punctuated by periods of frugality. Independent actions regarding money on the part of an ENFP's mate are not ordinarily welcomed, and the mate may find him or herself in an embarrassing situation of having to return purchases. ENFPs generally are the ones in charge of the home, and a conflict free home is desired, almost demanded. When he or she is in charge of economic resources, the ENFP's home may contain extravagant luxuries while necessities may be missing. They are not always interested in saving for the future and may be casual in giving consideration to such things as life insurance, savings accounts, and even a ready cash supply for mate and children.
ENFPs are characteristic in their pursuit of the novel, their strong sense of the possible, and outstanding intuitive powers. At the same time, they have warmth and fun with people and generally are unusually skilled in handling people. Their extraverted role tends to be well developed, as is their capacity for the novel and the dramatic.

Midlife
At midlife ENFPs may need to give particular attention to their physical health, concentrating perhaps on developing resources to release muscular tensions. Body awareness and relaxation exercises may deserve investment of energies; work with various art media such as oils, clay, and building materials may be pleasurable. They need also to discipline themselves against beginning too many projects and making commitments to too many people. They should more fully enjoy relationships and opportunities that already exist, even at the expense of neglecting new ones. ENFPs certainly need to relax, to decrease the number of hours invested in work, and turn to recreational activities-travel, visual entertainment, and physically relaxing activities.

Mates
Here is the herald, the spirited bearer of tiding. But underneath this effervescent enthusiasm is a person fiercely dedicated to "meaning" in life and reminiscent of the INFP crusader. Only the ENFP neither crusades nor meditates, not for long anyway. The ENFP is into everything, frisky, not unlike a puppy, sniffing around to see what's new. ENFP has to be in on everything, can't bear to be left out of anything. That's why they make such splendid reporters, newscasters, and journalists. Mercury. Now who would enjoy this frisky, bubbly-yet serious-person? The Rock of Gibraltar, of course-ISTJ, the "trustee." ISTJ, who revels in "keeping the books in order," "balancing the budget," "securing and ensuring," "stabilizing and steadying," "honoring contracts," "keeping the ship on a steady course" and "shipshape," delights also in providing anchorage and safe harbor for the heraldic ENFP.
Who else is attractive and attracted to our curious journalist? Strangely, the abstract scientist: INTJ. Lost in his abstract world of hypotheses, he finds anchorage in the person who knows what's going on in the real world! So ENFP can be an anchor or have an anchor, and who can tell which will be chosen.

Field Of Dreams

hello everyone.

its been a bumpy and confusing one week for the indecisive me.currently we all have 2more weeks to our uni applications. theres been alot of conflict within myself, plus parental pressure, ETC. what kind of life would i want to lead in future? i may be good looking at figures all day and fine having a desk bound job, but i think i wont be able to keep up with it as a career..even now as a temp im feeling that figures, budgetting stuff, taxes and just sitting there studying numbers wont be able to give me job satisfaction... i may be a people person,but how much personal/family time am i willing to sacrifice for a people job with loong working hours? oh bother...

time is running out (yet again). where do we go from here?

im 19!

hello everyone. alas, today marks the end of my great eighteenth, to welcome the 19 me! so old.. :P i went to work as per normal today, since i felt that there would be alot of stuff going on cos my boss xen is back. my first surprise came when lunch was at swensens! uber thanks to my boss. hmm though i think R and G (the big bosses) didnt quite enjoy the food..and the bad service -_-. maybe they're shorthanded just like us.
so now im waiting for my second surprise to arrive while i rattle on. :P.
A levels were released about a week ago. remembered this hoo ha about rj kids not being happy with 4As, and this kinda horrified the public..think the norm thinking would be, "isnt 4As a perfect score? why they seem like they're never satisfied. or these kids have too high expectationS!" but it didnt really stun me..i feel that sometimes when the competition is too tight, you wont even feel like you're the cream of the crop even when you already are. with 3As its quite difficult to differentiate yourself from your peers in schools, who probably did as well. have i been "poisoned" by that sort of mindset too?

:) CNY pics. late!

I'm not sure why, but i cant seem to view entries more recent than this one on this cover page!

but if you're interested, go to the left column and click under Archives->March 2007.

five colors in her hair

This few days have been really, exhausting! i never knew i could work till 1am (with my boss miss Dodo and siyu). by about 10 or 11 we were all quite quiet, perhaps all too zonked out to chat and stuff. we were the only ones left in the office by 10..realised there are really quite a number of night flights. could hear planes zooming above us. thunderous. then at 1 we drove to changi village to have dinner..nasi lemak! quite heavy meal. saw alot of tranvestites..haha. all the Shims..haha.

so happy for xen that shes getting married! :) my alpha woman role model. really admire her.

its quite amazing when i think about it now how much i can actually push myself. just regretting why i didnt push myself last year at the crucial period before exams, prelims, As....Koped this song from my angel Elvin's blog.


Patrick Park - Life Is A Song

You say life is a dream where we can't say what we mean
Maybe just some roadside scene that we're driving past
There's no telling where we'll be in a day or in a week
And there's no promises of peace or of happiness

Well is this why you cling to every little thing
And polverize and derrange all your senses
Maybe life is a song but you're scared to sing along
Until the very ending

Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From the chains and shackles that they're in

Oh, tell me what good is saying that you're free
In a dark and storming sea
You're chained to your history, you're surely sinking fast
You say that you know that the good Lord's in control
He's gonna bless and keep your tired and oh so restless soul

But at the end of the day when every price has been paid
You're gonna rise and sit beside him on some old seat of gold
And won't you tell me why you live like you're afraid to die
You'll die like you're afraid to go

Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From chains and shackles that they're in
From the chains and shackles that they're in

Well life is a dream 'cause we're all walking in our sleep
You could see us stand in lines like we're dead upon our feet
And we build our house of cards and then we wait for it to fall
Always forget how strange it is just to be alive at all

--Goodnight. probably not in a yak yak mood.

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february 8

wWwoah its been more than a month since i came here, hello once again to my poor little friends who still pop in (more often than me?) to check if im still alive! sorry about the dormancy..well this month without school seems to pass quite fast. for those who dont know,i am working with Finance dept of DHL EXEL! its near Changi beach park. theres an industrial park so its pretty inaccessible. but there're shuttle buses to get into the Alps. (thats the place!) IM SO so GLAD that ive brilliant colleagues and bosses!

so theres Gavin my big boss who's really fatherly, and humorous. No airs! he's also always the one that drives us out to T2 or Changi village for lunch. Lunch is also what i look forward to on my weekdays, cos the lunch time convos are raelly funny. Ghosts, and other randomites like cars, WEIGHT LOSS (think a quarter of the dept trying to lose weight!), first loves.....and gross stuff that i would not mention.lol. I also look forward to wednesdays where i get to visit Darren, my tuition kid..who insists that Quay is pronounced as Kueh; he will also never enunciate his words properly. my chi drama teacher would say he "chi luo si". eat screws. Dont ask me how that came about:S.

ok anyway back to my day job haha. theres another temp frm tp with me in the dept (: Work is pretty mechanical, mostly data entry though i like fiddling with the other machines... like the franking mail machine, where i will just slot the envelopes through and the machine will go GRRRR and it will print the postage on the envelope. its also thru this 2months that irealised; im AWFULLY scatter brained when it comes to paperwork, esp those that require me to detach staples, zap this and that..BLEAH i can attach wrong attachments to the cover sheet lei! retarded. we're shifting out of Alps soon and heading to Changi South, where the head office of DHL is i think. This alps place is not bad, though the office is in a wreck! the lift is spoilt and they still cant fix it after 3 days, they're renovating our level's pantry so we've to get water from the other levels, its dusty... ok but the toilets are cleaner than vj's.

got back early today cos i had half day leave to visit the ear specialist. supposedly ive a prob with my Eustachian tube, which is this short tube that links your ear to the back of your nose. it helps to regulate the pressure in your ear. so since its slightly dysfunctional..it caused me to have dull aches in my ears... there is no cure, so the only remedy is to open my mouth and let the pressure in my ear equalise with the surroundings O_O

high time they discharged me man! im stuck at the children's ward still. :(
i really felt old today. bugis village was filled with school kids sauntering about, some aunties, more school kids...

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010107

okie i know ive been MIA for a little while now.. happy 2007 everyone! what do yu guys think of this song's lyrics? its by Take That. enjoy the cool night! 1 jan.

i really wish 31dec didnt end so fast...haish.

Don't be sold a dream. Remember how the past has been

Don't be led to believe this one's for you

Calculate your needs. I see there's room to plant your seeds

Don't decide till you see how the others have grown

Once you've tasted love it is just the beginning of a new world

Once you've tasted love there's no way you can give in

Once you've tasted love

Still too early to know.

Give them time and they will grow

Don't believe that the first's the one for you

Most will grow to be tall, others will break and fall

Keep your eye on the strongest head of them all

Once you've tasted love it is just the beginning of a new world

Once you've tasted love it is just the beginning

for the person who left.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,

I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,

I am in the graceful rush.

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

I am the starshine of the night,

I am in the flowers that bloom,

I am in a quiet room.

I am in the birds that sing,

I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there, I do not die.

A French Affair

above: something my friend chinnie made:)
bought that album yesterday frm gramophone. it was alright, the music was good but according to my sister the quality was aslightly fuzzy so she's helping me return to the shop and see what they can do about it.

so fast, prelims are over! the next and final destination for this year will be the As...
ow.for me, prelims wont actually matter as in the mark, the grades and all since i wont be applying overseas. just that it will be another motivator for me, that tells me how much more i need to work for the next 6weeks. oh wait, is it only 5...

gonna get my good coffee later (:
take care and i probably wont update for a while frm now.. again. haha.

HELLO!

hello blog and my little friends.
its been about a month! i dare say that this month, ive been more hardworking than any of the months before! ive been doing my tutorials (ALAS!) and trying to start on prelims revision... which is difficult. :(
dont know what else to elaborate on for now. been daydreaming quite a bit (as usual) too... ok not daydreaming. but pensive thinking just that now, im able to not let the thoughts bite me and affect me as negatively as before.
anw Jenny this is for u. haha.
I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a heros welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where Im meant to be
Ill be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know evry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, Ill be right where I belong
Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow Ill see it through
And I wont look back, I can go the distance
And Ill stay on track, no, I wont accept defeat
Its an uphill slope, but I wont lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a heros strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its harms
I dont care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my heros welcome, waiting in your arms
I will search the world, I will face its harms
Till I find my heros welcome, waiting in your arms.


and this is a little test i did, koped from Don's website... they said im not human!

I Am A: Lawful Good Elf Paladin

Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.

Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.

Primary Class:
Paladins are the Holy Warriors. They have been chosen by a God/dess to be their representative on Earth, and must follow the code of that deity, or risk severe penalties. They tend towards being righteous, but not generally to excess.

Secondary Class:
Monks are strange and generally not understood by the world at large. They live apart from people, and follow strict codes that restrain their behavior and lifestyle. They have an exceptionally calm outlook on life, and generally do not resort to violence unless absolutely necessary. Even when they do, their code of conduct forbids the use of all weapons - except their hands. As such, monks are extremely skilled at hand-to-hand combat, and no other style.

Deity:
Tyr is the Lawful Good god of justice. He is also known as Tyr Grimjaws, Wounded Tyr, the Maimed God, and Blind Tyr. He appears as a warrior, missing his hand. Followers of Tyr are concerned first and foremost with justice - discovering the truth and punishing the guilty for their crimes. They wear blue and purple robes with a white sash, a white gauntlet on the left hand, and a black gauntlet on the right, to symbolize Tyr's lost hand. Their preferred weapon is the warhammer. Tyr's symbol is a set of scales resting on a warhammer.

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Loves.

Somehow photos seem to be able to engage me and leave me totally..i dont know. i feel so surreal sometimes just looking at how things are just so different in various parts of the world. how much do we know about the world outside of our little singapore? and whats actually happening...all the ways of life, the culture, festivals. not forgetting the poverty and tragedies that will put us to shame and make me think twice about grumbling about what im going through here.

Jenny's competition is tmr. really hope he does it well!:)



Maymyo, Burma, 1983
Photograph by James L. Stanfield
A gharry driver awaits a fare on a deserted street in Maymyo, a mountain town where British colonial officials recreated their beloved English countryside with half-timbered houses, rose arbors, and steepled churches.
(Text adapted from and photograph shot on assignment for, but not published in, "Time and Again in Burma," July 1984, National Geographic magazine.)

This furry thing u see up here is the rock dassie. if you didnt know what it was :).

its an arid desert animal. quite laazy. likes basking in the sun if im not wrong.

tonight its the blues against the blues. im guessing Italy will win, 2-1. just a guess.

theres school tomorrow... i wish i didnt bring mi guitar back on friday, for now its been nabbed by my mum. saw it at the top of her wardrobe without a proper case!:( she took tthe guitar but left my guitar bag there..so my guitar is now draped with two plastic bags, one for the body and the other for the part with the frets...just reminds me of those murders where the victim is shabbily packaged. she insists the temptation is there..as in the temptation and distraction of the guitar. well i admit thats quite true.

ok never mind. goodnight. :

Old School

hello blog, and a few other poor friends of mine who read this.
today was a pretty eventful day, hmm, where shall i start? actually want to talk about whats been on for the week since i havent updated for a while.. but never mind. whats fresh in my mind is what happened, today... quite an interesting day on the whole.

today, when i didnt fall asleep during lectures! and lessons weren't too stressful too. no major tutorial going thru sessions. its quite nice listening to your classmate laugh a hearty laugh. its pretty infectious too. kinda keeps u awake as well. (:

this morning, i had an encounter with a teacher with a gray face. i dont know her name, but ive seen her around before. the grayest face ive seen around.. as some of u already know, i fell down once again, which's my 2nd time tripping and falling while jogging in 3weeks.this time round the wound's a bit bigger and on the other knee. but its drying up already. so just like yestrday, i went to sit on the chairs at the aisle of the hall. shared a chair with bee. its interesting that teachers have different responses to this.

Me: hi mrs Foo may i take this chair?
MrsFoo: aiyo your knee!! sitsitsitsitsit! (yes in the way she talks when she gets excited or appalled when we dont do tutorials.)

so bee and i sat there..listened to the announcements. im slightly : about the soccer thing now being held in the canteen. supposed to be at the concourse where they will set up a big projector screen. im guessing a teacher i/c may have tried to make his job easier by offering the plasma screen tv to my juniors instead of setting up a larger screen in the concourse. if we're doing this screening of worldcup finals with the plasma, may i suggest that its actually better to use the plasma at the concourse. at least its lower and the screen is closer to people. the canteen one stares down at you. :( thanks for the effort guys!

ok back to the thing. while listening to the announcements there was a lady teacher sitting a few seats ahead of me, and i kept seeing her gray head turn and she looked back at me a few times. she was scrutinising me. saw her head tilt down to look at my leg. i pretended not to notice.
after assembly when the crowd has dispersed she came to me...

Gray face: why wereyou sitting on the chair?
Me: Im injured.
Her: OH? What injury is that?
Me: I wounded my knee.
then after she ranted about how she used to have a student who had a knee operation and didnt dare to sit on the chairs. she was "too embarrassed".
Me: Different people have different tolerance levels, ma'am.

Her gray face turned black.
so she said other stuff, then she left after i told her we got her point.
i know she is a teacher, that there are other teachers who were standing around, but there were ample chairs around. that was what mr lim michael said. so i guess they were chatting so they chose not to sit. hard to talk sitting in a line?
think she was just displeased that im taking a chair and she felt her status as a teacher being threatened. well, i think she must be not feeling well. all the unhealthy ions just look like they were seeping out from the gray face!

and unpleasant behaviour in the LT. i dislike it when people give our chem rep ill treatment.
i mean, why do people expect our chem rep to deliver their notes right to their noses? esp when the lecturer was starting. someone could have come down to collect for the row, right? i didnt see the need to shout the chem rep's name to tell everyone that there were people without notes, and also without courtesy or legs to come down and take it frm her.

ok byebye mum wants to use.

for some sentimental reason

common tests are over. im not expecting very good grades, but anyway i have to say this is the one exam that i feel that ive actually put in a decent amount of effort to at least run through most of the chapters being tested, to feel that interest and attachment to what i study and try keeping focused during the times when i was studying. anyway the common tests made me realise that if i want to do well, or at least escape my EOF fate for my subjects, i really need to be alot more focused, alot more intensive, esp when for the last one and a half years ive been inconsistent, or should i say that ccas were kinda like my core. i didnt feel like i was a student. studying was just a pasttime to me. jac needs to block out all the distractions already...and must stop herself from becoming too disorientated, and must detach herself from the troubles and itsy things that make her pensive.just for a while...

meanwhlie i had a good night with the girls just now :) good dinner, but poor shee's baked pasta was abit too soupy.... :\ for now, take care everyone. i think after badminton tomorrow i may head out to the beach and do some pondering and some guitar strumming. serenade the waves, and relax:)

11:11

dont let me get me

its a lazy saturday. anyway last night's germany vs costa rica was quite interesting in the first half. to me. it got slightly boring after that.but i still wanted to continue watching. unfortunately my mum popped into the living room and switched the tv off :( never mind. lots of things better to do.

went to harbourfrnt center to have lunch with jun, chinnie shiling and Mrs Tan! her kids came after that it always feels good to meet up and chill out and talk over lunch!it has a therapeutic effect somehow. im not very good with words, as u guys have seen/read.......so pictures(:

really miss everyone. thats shiling, mrs tan,and little mabel who've grown quite abit frm the last time i saw her!and me, and my fats.. haha. ok now. maybe i should go study :X. lazy saturdaY... am even lazy to type any further. oh before i end. not sure how many of us are shocked by the young doc who took drugs and got himself into all that crap. was it really a build up of bottled emotions. and the final examination made him snap. think humans really let situations control them all too often. like in that angst and self pity people stop being conscious of their self and their feelings, and just let things go, snap. jump dwn building. whatver nonsense it is. anyway bet he never thought that it was a trap set by the police. what makes humans both vulnerable and capable of being resilient and strong?chemistry's driving me nuts. though i do admit that its not as difficult as i thought. do u know i used to think organic chem is so huge that its like 20chapters :x thats before i started picking up mmy notes. im now..halfway thru organic i think.if i remember the stuff that i studied.